psyche's closet

usapang lalake

inspired by one of lola lei's blog entry

guy #1
i told myself that i'd banish him from my thoughts, that i won't turn every single thing that reminds me of him into portkeys of memories that i'd want to relive, and yet he still manages to squeeze his way into my mind every now and then. people have asked me over and over again, "are you in love with him?" i'd like to think that i'm not, that i'm just amused that i met someone who actually watches national geographic and discovery channel, who remembers my favorite quote from my girl 1, who knows a hell lot more about movies and tv programs than i do, who actually corrects my pronunciation and who uses predictive texting. but i keep wondering if he thinks about me too... i keep thinking about what he'd say, how he'd react to certain situations if he only happened to be with me...
i... miss him.

guy #2
he's not my usual type... well, #1 isn't, either, but i liked this guy almost immediately after meeting him because um, he's the only ok-looking guy in our training class. he's not super cute or anything, but he's an eye candy. nice porma. after a while i realized he's the unbearable coño type, forever speaking in that contrived american twang so i got irritated and moved to guy #3 (i'll elaborate on him later) just so i can have something to look forward to everytime i go to work. but we became friends, and i started hanging out with him and whaddya know, he's not so bad afterall. thing is, he already has a girlfriend AND he seems to like one of our friends who's really2 close to me. hai... it's not confirmed yet, but our friend likes him too so... there. too bad. he turned out to be this really, really nice guy who'd make sure he'd go to you when you seem sad so you two can share a joke or two, even if nobody else has noticed. he even left our friend one time because "walang kasabay si chryss." super nice considering they're already kinda "mu" and all. i even get invited to hang out with the two of them as a sorta third wheel so that the girl won't fall too hard daw for him (since the situation is magulo, yada) and yet i have never felt out of place. hai...

guy #3
me and my friends were playing and throwing pens during the first day of training and the pen i threw out suddenly landed on somebody else. the guy is definitely not cute. my friends teased me about it, "soulmate daw" cut to: next day, we were checking our quizzes and i was checking this paper with an unbelievably high score. guess whose paper it was? yup, the "pen" guy. he goes to class, sleeps or listen to mp3's and yet get scores higher than most of ours. cut to: the class just came back from a break, our trainer started saying something but was cut by somebody singing, "la, la, la." i look at the back and saw guy #3 with earphones stuck to his ear seemingly not caring that most of the people in front are already looking at him. cut to: i was walking one day, frustrated by an online exam, and blurted "just when you think you know everything...aargh!" didn't know he was behind me, just heard a voice that said "you can't know everything." ookai... heath ledger in 10 things i hate about you? i started thinking, hmmm... he's brainy, he's witty, he's rich pa pala, pero he's super modest, so since i was just turned-off by coño guy #2, i decided i liked him better. turns out he likes the same girl guy #2 likes and started stalking her like a psycho. take note, he has a girlfriend too. turned-off ang lola mo. but he's still among the few ones who says the funniest, wittiest comments plus i'm still amazed at how little effort he exerts to study and yet he's still one of the few people who i think will get top marks on the licensure exam.
again, too bad.

guy #4
we used to really jive. i used to find him physically appealing, though i know a lot of people would beg to disagree. his sense of humor was something that i really liked about him, though nowadays i seldom find his jokes funny. he's intelligent, though it's not the same brand of intelligence i would've wanted my guy to have. he had been all i ever wanted, right now he's all that i have. i want to be fair to him, to be fair to myself. to figure out my real feelings once and for all. even though it doesn't seem like it, i want to be worthy of being called his girlfriend...
and he loves me...
he really, really does.

posted by moonchild @ 8:54 PM